So many thoughts torment me. Its so hard to put them all down on paper. The world is so simple if you have everything figured out but so confusing if theirs even a small glitch in your path. Unfulfilled love, career, illness. So many things.....so many problems. Theirs always that 'what if..' lingering their in your subconscious, coming out to haunt you. I want my mind to be flooded with light and not engulfed in darkness. As one of my friends pointed out, "we all have darkness inside us.." But its only a few of us, who indulge in this darkness, this realm that is beyond our normal selves. That awaits us when we are low or angry and jumps forward when we have our barriers down. Some handle it with courage and treat it sternly, others fall prey to this subconscious....us.